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Sex with a ghost
One night as I slept in the comfort of my room, Under the shadowy light of a crescent moon, I think – I dreamt? – I had sex with a ghost. It came to me with caressing words of prayer, But they felt barely there, like a whisper at most. Uttered too soon, too low,…
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The thinning of realms
Hey, come here There’s a secret I wanna share I’m not really supposed to but… Oh well. Some of us live in some sort of quantum state Gateways to a world for which you’re not ready yet We’re here, trapped in a box of nightmares Hearing death’s calls and feeling its stares And yet our…
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Fetus claws
She went to the protest with that thing already inside her Pushing her belly out even though it was still flat Hoping for an elbow to hit, for a cop to throw her to the ground So she wouldn’t have to deal with it herself.. A woman nearby in the midst of the crowd Pulled…
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Under the christmas lights, over a glass of whiskey
After the third or the fourth shot, the taste of alcohol didn’t matter much anymore. Adrianna wouldn’t have considered herself an alcoholic. Honestly, she wasn’t even much of a drinker, usually. But the holidays were an entirely different affair. She had pondered for a long time and ultimately, had decided for the first time ever…
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Bed of poppies
In Greek mythology and in my disordered brain, sleep is a reigning god. Hypnos, they called him. This is the first time I’ve been clear-headed in a week. The first time I’ve been awake for more than three hours in a row without my brain screeching for more sleep. It feels like a hundred years…
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Eulogy of a dream
I met him one day in the dark recesses of my mindAs if he had been there waiting for me to findHis arms were peppered with bruises the way my thighs were riddled with scarsI preferred blades and him needles but we fought the same warsI found comfort in his struggles against the demonI could…
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Borderline Personality Disorder
Trigger warnings apply for self harming, suicidal ideation and in depth description of mental illness. If you feel like this might distress you in anyway, please skip this article entirely. You can go look at some of my more light hearted articles or close this page entirely. I don’t mind, I promise. Today I woke…
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A psychotic love affair
I think psychosis has taken over my world I’m screaming, I’m crying, but I don’t say a word I can’t speak because people won’t believe me. Deep down I know what they think; I know they are the enemy. And in the twisting shadows looming behind my back I know they wait, eager to destroy,…
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Hypersomnia
I’ve been meaning to write a new article for ages now, and couldn’t find any motivation. I have quite a few things planned but in the meantime, I hope you enjoy this little piece of poetry I wrote the other day to try to explain what disordered sleeping actually feels like. I feel like we…
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Drowning under the sand
As quarantine slowly comes to an end in most parts of the world, I have decided to do some very basic reflection of what this experience has been like that for me. I know we’re all sick to death of talking about it, so I will not be outraged if you decide to skip this…